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| 02:03pm 02/06/2006 |
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mood:  tired music: spongebob theme
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dis week has been random, i have,
shoped in manchester, bought plants called sumo shermin n bob green, went to lady green garden centre n played top trumps, played top trumps on train to manchester wit gembe, ate food, spent moneys, bought turtle things, went to da lpool museum, ate in eddie rockers(took ages to order:(), played thomas da tank engine top trunks, had my first legal drink (southern comfort n coke), kissed, got drinks bought for, got wasted in blues, turned 8, went to da liver n saw jayface, drank a hell of alot of coke, went da K :S, got presents, got spongebob n patrick ballons, got a new dress, got new shoes, n clotheskies, got new bag, ate pizza, went shoppin wit clews :), drank beer, saw friends, got random photos taken, got imbarrased at a restuarant (bday cake), drank southern comfort n coke, farted, got gay 2 quid glasses, went to primark, got new trainers which are recked already, went for a random drive to sowy, played on da playstation abe oddyesey all da way, did no revision at all, saw me nan n aunty, got boss cards, got buttons, drank wine, dropped a bottle of perfume, spent all me wages, lost everyone nearly in da k, went to liverpool like everyday nearlly, woke up at half 5, went to college for revision session, laughed at people, upset people, talked loads of crap, realised things, spilt drink, pinched arses, got bruises, comforted a friend, upset a friend or few, laughed with friends, ran around like a meff, cos i am a meff, chatted random shit like i am doin now, yeah.......RANDOM gud half term if i dont say so myself :) cant wait till exams are over ....... |
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| :( can u kiss sumone wen your on a break? |
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| 01:03am 23/05/2006 |
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mood:  sad music: the reason,
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i have had a random weekend, im just sittin in bed rite now after bein on da phone to richie for like an hour (hes my donut boy)so yeah..
FRIDAY
Went to enids house to put dread locks in her hair had a boss nite watched loads of comedy tv cos wer kool like dat n i spent sum time ammuzin myself by spellin out stuff n sentences on enids radiatior wit magnetic letters, while helen n enid wer on myspace.
SATURDAY
went to town in da mornin wit me hoe tab, spent sum money alot of money as u do, on two tops n a jacket n sum sexy cute kncikers from marks n sparks, i love my tab.
shes a beast n i always end up makin h er spend loads of money :)
den got home went to work in da gay whole dat is sainsburys,
den in da nite went to alex to da gs party in kirkdale which isnt as much as in da middle of now wer wer i thought it wud be, i didnt have time to get any ale, but ended up gettin sum drink for free :) da party was ok like not as gud as i thought but a made a few new friends n got to know people a bit better which was kool like. i ended up gettin into some lad called james (or logan ermm nice name) anyways, i did like him but n got kissed him a few times cos i was a lil drunk like, so dis is like wer all da shit happened
SUNDAY
so i was meant to go to smolz today as usual, but it was shut n ended up meetin gregory n kyle at plumleys or sumthin like dat its called.
which was gud besides sex was talked bout quite a lot :|
i got a free cup of tea too (thanks kyle :)
den i was in work again, n wasnt really in da mood at first to go out, but den i was like fuck it im goin out cant be arsed stayin in like.
so knocked at jonnys, n got soaked just as we got to crosby grwwwwwwwwww meet up wit greg n went to blues for a lil den went to scal pub, which was a gud nite, got a few drinks paid for me n got a lil drunk
n yup ended up in da end of da nite kissin sumone quite a few times, it wasnt intiall like it just happened, which is now ending up to be da worst thing ever dat has happened recently
i mean i dont rregret it it happened, n ders nothin i can do now, but ok i do like dis guy not madly, i get on wit him so well like , but wat happend has annoyed n upset his best mate, which cud effect der friend ship. which is just fuckin gay :( n im mates wit dis lad too. me n dis lad arent takin dis any further like , but im sure i just bring shit ti everythin, im so fucked up i dont know wat iwant, n hate hutrtin people,
yup so dis got all brought up today, n also im in shit wit me sort of ex dats another thing which is buggin me
if your cin sumone for like a few weeekds, n dis guy is really nice n sweet n trusty worthy, but da relationship wasnt as serious as u thought, den u sort of split up/break becaus u dont htink tis workin. DO u think its ok to kiss sumone else? :(
wel i was cin dis guy n know hes mega pissed of at me cos of it, but i thought it was ok to cos we wernt together like, n i didnt think it was dat serious like. so ive prob lost a freindship (hiopefuly not)
u know fuck it im off to sleep i just needed to rant dis donw, to sort of make sense of my weekend but i cant really. o wells :( |
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| 05:20pm 01/05/2006 |
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| Your Scholastic Strength Is Developing Ideas | 
You can take a spark of inspiration and turn it into a full fledged concept.
You are talented at brainstorming, visualizing, organizing, and independent thinking.
You should major in:
Natural sciences
Computer science
Creative writing
Math
Architecture
Journalism |
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| 05:10pm 01/05/2006 |
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| Your Love Life Secrets Are | 
Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?
You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.
In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.
You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over. |
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| 05:07pm 01/05/2006 |
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| Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me" | 
A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.
Your heart is open to where ever love takes you!
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out
Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking
What turns you off: fighting and conflict
Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love |
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| 11:03am 01/05/2006 |
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mood: tired music: nowt
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omg yday was basically shit well da beginning of it was cos, i had only 5 hours sleep, was in work for 4 n a half hours which was reallly shit cos i cudnt be arsed for any customers at all so was doin a bit of snarlin at peps u know as u do
i fuckin hate work.........
so wen i got home i wasnt in da greatest of moods, i was tired n just wanted to sleep, so got home had to make my own tea, n make stes tooooo, which on a up side was da best ever ham n leek pasta thing i have ever done, it was fit, n i was megaly proud of myself i want some more now :(
i just had no energy at all, so after id eaten (n had eaten sum chocys too) i fell asleep, didnt even hear me phone go, n didnt get me text messages cos me phone had full memory
s0 about quatre past seven i decided to move n get ready to go out, eventually got me texts n was meant to be at station at dat time, which was not gona happen cos 1- i was late, 2-i wasnt ready at all, 3- i was at me mums n dats a mission away so i was like shit...
but so yeah i was late bout an hour late to be honest, but ended up gettin a lift of me mum cos shes mega boss, to HANNAHS (da nose lickers) partA of da HATSO..............................MEGA GUD NITE
so yeah cos i was late i didnt get any alochol n really was not in da moodo for drinkin but yeah as soon as i got der, it was drinkin game time :) sumthin to do wit cards, v funnyyyyyy :P
so as u can gather cos im a lil light weight i got drunk...:)
which was very funny n cant renber much of da nite........let me see
run round da garden like a mad head wit alex her mate n liz n laura n collapsin on da grass, gettin covered in muck cos it was rainin :S
drank vodka from da bottle ( whic i cant normally do) n not even realisin how horrible it is :(
sat n drunkly talked to luke ( soz luke )
danced on chairs
wore a number of hats
cut my elbow sum how
was prob really annoyin to people
fell over a lot of times :S
got my converse more dirty :)
love laura even more now :)
tried to look sober as i got in car
left wit liz hams stuff :( soz liz
got in a rabbit hutch ( ermm cant spell dat)
got me spongebob tshirt dirty :(
yep it was a really weird nite, it was actually i fuckin boss nite, it was da first time ive bin drunk in a while, seriously wer i was loosin control a bit, i think i was really annoyin n i dont even know how, cos its not like i drunk much, but i did mix me drinks o wells me offskies i was gona go for a run dat was like an hour agao thou huuuuuuuuuuuuuuummm wen i got from teds (which i totally forgot i had dis mornin o fuckssss)
o n im not even hungover,n dont know wat time i left or how i ended up in da car...........
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| 04:43pm 26/04/2006 |
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mood:  wats dis mean?? music: tv muic channel
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so yeah i ave decided to up date dis soddin thing...............which has bin a while since i last updated
i stayed of college today, cos i was sick :( i hate bein ill, so i decided id stay of college cos ive only had one lesson today which was a revision mechanics lesson which is my choice to go, so instead i stayed in bed till twelve and messed about all day, when really i shud ave bin doin art work for me art exam tomos i really cant be bothered to do anywork for it :( i just cant be bothered any more i just want to stay in my bed all day cos i still feel ill n i gots a headache...
so yeah i cant acutally renember wat has happened since i last update :S
o easter hol has come n gone,
ive got fatter after all dis chocolate,
im addicted to da stuff i swear down on it.
i have no more art n graphics lessons
i still hate work n college work
i got to see me friends a lil more
ive burbed and farted al lot
i got a new boyf
travelled on train millions of times
took photos
ermmmmm yeah random other stuff which i cant renember
o yeah im worried about one friend in particular who ive bin a bit funny wit, but deep down der ok, everyone makes mistakes, n dey really need me at mo:(
u know i think im just messed up in da head, have u ever bin in a situation wen u really want sumthin but admit to yourself ul never get it, for reasons n den wen u get the thing u wanted, your not sure if you really wanted it in da first place, ermm yeah im chattin shit. n another thing i hate losin contact wit people dat meant so much to me, for reasons you cant control, like driftin apart its gay, im sort of worryin about goin to uni, cos i dont want to loose da people i care bout now.
oooooooooooooooooooooo.........
i cant wait till summer im goin on hol :) to zante, n i wont ave anymore exams n college will be over n i can breath for a bit n dont ave to worry about things
on a upside as well,i get paid on fri (woop woop)
n i get a bonus too
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
erm
ive chatted complete n utter shit on dis, sorrry :( |
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| 11:55pm 26/03/2006 |
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mood:  blah
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da trains are messed up tomoz between formby n sowy
n i cant be bothered for da hassel.
fuckin stupid college............................ |
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| i have a plant called drucila |
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| 12:07am 24/03/2006 |
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mood: numb music: the computer
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i dont know wat to feel rite now.............. im in such a numb mood
so dis is how my week is goin so far
MONDAY was in college, but was late, did art n graphics all day, den was in shit work for 4 hours in da evenin cos i needs extra money.........
TUESDAY was in collge again o wat a surprise der, but didnt get intil 12 so was all gud, den had guitar lesson, n den sat at home as u do, n ooo yeah watched tv, n watched a film called da first daughter which made me cry........ but isnt a real crye movie like
WEDNESDAY wasnt in college! :) went to leeds met uni, for interview hahah n dey gave me n offer even thou i thought da interview went shit, n i didnt like da place so cudnt be arses. den on way home went to ikea wit me mum, n bought her a plant called bob, n we bought other random stuff for conservatory n my room, (hahhah i ave my own plant now, but not sure how long it will decide to live thou cos i always forget to wash da damn thing, but ive decided to call it drucila, n its pink n girly n in a white pot, but i wanted to get pink tulips cos der my flower but dey wud defo not ave lasted)
den tidyed me room, n went to da pub quiz nite, wich was random, but defo not as gud as usual :(
TODAY ive bin told i have to update dis by me old chum dat is pete (my kelly clarkson fan /work buddy)
so i have but its shit cos im tired but dont want to go to sleep cos im in a shitty mood............
does anyone ever feel down, even thou u know u shudnt? like cum on dem starvin kidz in africa are like starvin, n have to work long hours for like nothin all day, or like really poor people, or homeless people, or people who are ill, people who acutally have problems
we shud just be happy wit life rite? we shud think things will only get better( hahah of a song der)!
but how cum i feel so shitty, n down at mo (actually dis week) even thou i aint got any real problems, its like im expectin sumthin boss to happen (but its not happenin)
n i ave all dis college work n shit, i cant be arsed at all, but i dont want to be thinkin if i only did da work i cud ave done dis blah blah.
so i plan to do things, eat healthy, do my work, be nicer to people, have a laugh.................................................but at da end of day it never quite happens...............erm maybe its just pre-exam period ( but der like fuckin 8 weeks away SHIT!)
i just keep regrettin things ive done n sed ( n even if it was probably for da best)
im sorrry, im blabbin, n im goin to bed xxxxxxxxxxxxx |
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| 12:45am 03/03/2006 |
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im cold, n isnt it meant to be gettin warmer soon..................... |
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| 09:00pm 28/02/2006 |
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mood:  stressed
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im stessed
fuckin stressed
i have an interview tomoz in fuckin huddersfiled , i have work to do, i have work for an uni im tired, COLLEGE IS STRESSIN ME OUT
n i think ive just poisoned meslef makin pancakes............ |
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| 06:36pm 26/02/2006 |
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sundays are gay
work is gay, life is gay, tiredness is gay, customers are gay, college work is gay, o n yeah college is gay..............so sundays are offical gay days.......... |
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| 01:32pm 25/02/2006 |
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i was in work yday it was totally shit,
shit hours, shit customers, shit till, shitty cold weather
n i was all depressed walkin home, cos didnt think i wud end up goin out, cos im friendless lol
but i did n it was boss it was a random nite n i love nitez like dat n i love da guyz who i was wit too
went da birky, stamps n blues bar wit lizo to da hamedgeo n luke n nick n robin n taurpy.
i acutally got served, i saw miss white in da birky, saw peps from work, saw me mate jackie n halies at blues bar, drank creme egg shots, drank southern comfort n coke, listened to nick on karokee 3 times at stamps, talked about random stuff, put stuff in robins pockets.
im actually in a gud mood today, im in a good mood wit me parents n wit meself i think il be goin out tonite to cos me parents are payin for me train ticket to huddersfield on wed for an interview so me ave moneys even thou da ticket was a hell of a lot cheeper den i thought so like 15 squid, but shittin meself goin on me own
does anyone want to go on a random trip to huddersfield on wed? thought not
im in work in two hours
im in me underwear ritin dis n sortin stuff out for a portfolio which i shud ave sent of ages ago da deadline is like next tue ahhhhhhhhhhhh
o wells i dont know wat tonite will bring, i think im goin out wit si, for couple games of pool n drink (ermm southern comfort) so shud be a laugh.................
anyways
i need to get dressed n brush me teeth n make meself look sort of presentable for a 5 hour shift of hell, one day im really gona shout at a customer. i feel sorry for who ever dat is
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| i wish i was someone else for da day..... |
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| 03:08am 24/02/2006 |
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mood: sad
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so yeah today its a thursday
didnt go play footie cos it was rainin
did go out n meet jay which was a bad idea, cos im messed up in da head about da situation n made him messed up in da head
i dont know if anyone has ever bin in a situation wer da best thing to do is not want u really want but wat is best for da other persons sake, even if u care about dem. has anyone ever put der own feelings aside just so u know your doin da rite thing?
ive bin here before a few times, wen ive bin told i shudnt n i ave, wen i knew deep down it was wrong to go der, but i just went on me feelins, wen i new deep down in my gut i shud ave just stepped away even if my feelings were really strong, but today i went wit my gut feelin, which i ave tried to before, n i know il regret one day, n sort of regrettin now.............. if anyone is actually makin sense of wat im sayin here u deserve a medal.
so yeah im offically over with jay, it hasnt bin easy, n today i made things worse by kissin him, well a number of kisses, n gave back his teddy n braclet thing too, it felt like it had to be given back now.
ive cried loadz about it n cried loadz in films today to such as da last samuri, n ermmmm sum other sad films dat wer on tv.... n yes i need to get out more.
im so messed up at da mo, i think its da stress of college at mo, n it aint got bad yet, all dese uni deadline things n everythin, ive got an interview on wed n aint even booked a train ticket or anythin to get down der, or even made sure my dads of work to take me, its all da way in huddersfield too....
ive learnt alot of things to day
always be true to yourself and your feelings.
always keep your room reasonably tidy so u dont spend hours lookin for things.
shud always get more da 6 hours sleep
never lie or pretend to be sumthin or say stuff, because it in da long run people will be hurt, n no one likes a lier...
always brush your teeth, cos u dont want yellow teeth
n i want chocolate fudge cake so badly, im avin such bad cravings.............
nite all
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| 11:06am 23/02/2006 |
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its a thursday i ave work to do but cant be bothered to do it
ive bin dragged to play footie today
im meant to be meetin up wit jay for lunch
my hairs greasy but dont see da point of washin it wen i ave to go play footie
im tired
stressed
hungry
o n i ave 7 hours of work tomoz (dats gona be fun)........... |
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| 01:06am 22/02/2006 |
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mood:  cold
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omg my day as bin so weird today..........
i was doin most of me maths work today, but got a headache from uzin me brain im bein serious here. n tried to tidy me room but didnt end up happenin, sort of tidyed it a bit like so o wells.
so i stayed in wich was borin, den i went to a gig in stamps too, which was gud. it wernt da best gig they had done but it was awesome
acutally my nite wernt to badish. so wat happened/did/ random things words etc.....
old guy diggin danny
chips from da chippy
strawberry laces
free girly drink
drivin to tesco at 12 at nite for dr pepper
bein a bitch
sittin on stage
leavin phil n jonny stranded at tesco car park
texted
saw tab
wore my pooooooooooomas
got called an emo (which i blantenly am not)
gettin dragged to play footie on thur
met sumelse called phil whoz not a paky
phil fartin
ringin peps to drag outside house which i cudnt cos im crap at
yeah randomnos
but some things ive realised
im a bitch at times,
i feel bad bout sumthin,
i talk to much,
im annnoyin,
i realised sumthin i dont want to admit to myself or especially to other people,
how cum life doesnt go da way u expect it to,
i cant stand people who lie all da time or pretend to be sumthin they aint,
i hate bein relyed on,
i hate tryna pretend everythin is ok,
im confuzed,
i wish i was a better person,
i want to be more healthy,
i feel so alone sumtimes,
college is shit,
my family do my head in,
i hate it wen u like sumone, but ur so confuzed about it,
sorry i just needed to get dat of my chest
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| 01:09pm 20/02/2006 |
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ive just farted |
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| 09:24pm 11/02/2006 |
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mood:  calm
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at brians he is bored, or im borin, im still bit ill, n i was off work, n i made pink tom n jerry cakes, n watched certain funny parts of a film over n over again...............beercan.......... |
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| 12:00pm 10/02/2006 |
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mood:  exhausted
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ive got flu, ive got no phone credit, im stayin of college, im gona watch daytime tv, n sit around tryna get rid of dis damn illness.
n typically i took at day of work. tomoz. so cant phone in sick. |
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